suddenly single
i've recently found these liquid herbal extracts that you add to water and take throughout the day for various ailments. i used a 'stop smoking' extract when i quit in october and was quite successful. i'm using it again now after my brief relapse and also found a few others that i thought would be helpful.
one is the good mood tonic. it says that it "promotes positive mood and healthy emotional balance". cool. i could always use help in this department. especially while i am back on the diet and intense workout schedule (see below).
the other is a female libido tonic. whoever said that your sex drive goes up in your 30's is lying. i thought this tonic might be fun to try out and maybe help with my part in the bedroom. finding myself suddenly single, it really sucks to discover that this tonic works. maybe it's the placebo effect, maybe it's the herbs, but all i can think about it sex sex sex. and i do not want the vibrator if you know what i mean.
i recently got back on track with my diet and exercise as i'm planning to go clinically insane in june and ride my road bike (ruby blue) to los angeles from san francisco. i think that this female libido tonic might become part of my life even though i'm no longer "active" in that department because all i want to do is work out so i don't think about sex!
female libido tonic contains: muira puama stem, shatavari root, chinese ginseng root (no wonder i get all jittery), ginger rhizome and cinnamon bark. sanger's holistic vet told me that ginger and cinnamon generate heat in the body. i find this interesting.
perhaps i've found the miracle tonic to make every fat girl's dream come true! well, fat and single anyway. i can say this because i am both fat (ok chubby) and single.
it's amazing how satisfied i am with this arrangement. no sex = work out more = better body; which would normally be why i wanted to work out more, you know, because someone is seeing me naked on a regular basis. but no. this time, it's for me! allllll for me. not the size 4 jeans, not the boy who wont commit to me and must think i'm fat so i must loose more weight for him to want to be with me.
ME AND ONLY ME.